I hate to fail. My failure avoidance leads to a tendency for overwork. I drive myself harder than any manager will, mostly out of fear of failure rather than love for the work. My feelings of insecurity make me a good employee and student, but they also put me at risk for burn out and … Continue reading Imposter syndrome is not real, but I call mine ‘Beryl’.
Last year I had a health crisis, brought on by many years of just working too many hours. After about 15 years of regularly doing 50 or 60 hour weeks something inside me just... snapped. It started with unexpected bouts of tears at work, then rapidly progressed to anxiety attacks, exhaustion and mood swings. The … Continue reading Perfectionism is a spectrum disorder
Long time readers may have noticed that for the first time in 5 years the Thesis Whisperer did not publish a post first thing on Wednesday morning. I just... well - I forgot. I felt terrible about this until @deblsda just pointed out on Twitter, a habit interrupted is not a habit broken. Five years … Continue reading The last 5%